It's strange, realising you can have multiple mindsets at the same time. It sort of answers the question of how the 7/7 bombers could live Western lives quite happily, yet also commit mass murder in the name of attacking just that lifestyle/system. And (hardly as a comparison) I right now am all ready for things to take off in 2006 for the first time - the dangers have gone away (just how many times can it be possible to dodge a bullet?), I'm employed (and appreciated), about to be paid (very well), and learning from a professional photographer as well. Yet I'm still not happy, the anxiety is actually quite difficult to control recently, despite the things which threatened to destroy me actually having gone away.
2006 is a very strange year. I've never been more impatient. I really have to make at least 2, and maybe three of my ideas work.